not your star *

if you are in love with someone right now, please tell him or her. even and ESPECIALLY if he has no idea. you will forever regret not saying anything. disappointment is easier to get over than not knowing.

otherwise, two years later, you’ll still wake up wishing you hadn’t held your peace.

you’ll relive that night when you had a chance over and over and over and over and over and over again ad nauseum.

your favorite songs will no longer be just songs, but rather triggers for tears anywhere and everywhere, especially on the freeway when you’re coming home to no one.

you’ll compare everyone you meet to him, and they will NEVER live up.

you’ll cast lines that never come back in because you’ve given up.

you’ll want to rip your heart out for giving you away and for being so weak.

you will want to move on,

but you won’t be able to.

so please please please tell them. i am begging you. rejection is undesirable, but at least you will know. and what if he doesn’t reject you? WHAT IF?

that’s the question i ask myself every day, but you won’t have to wonder anymore.

and you won’t have to subject yourself to this. i don’t even know what ‘this’ is, but it SUCKS. it’s that feeling of always being half empty, of seeing everything in black and white, of waiting for something that will never come.

if you love him, then love yourself and speak up. please.